Patience has never been a virtue that I have had much of at all. Never really understood why until this last year. For me patience is a luxury that I could never have or allow myself to have and it worked on so many levels but mostly was operating on a level that I don't have patience with myself.
It is absolutely ingrained in me since I was a child that I was to be one to fix things. To just take care of things. To make sure everyone is taken care of, with the exception of myself. Hence why this self care thing is so important.
Just recently some of the things that I would have pushed through in the past was...
1. Getting sick and pushing myself to continue to care for others rather than myself. What I had was a nasty case of the flu. Pushing myself would have only prolonged its effects.
2. Pushing myself to workout to quickly after having been sick, thus usually staying sick and risking injury.
3. Getting down on myself when I stepped away from my blog. Guess what? It has still been here when I get back.
4. Doing what I want or rather not catering to everyone else's needs and forgetting my own.
5. Patience with people.
Patience with people is one that I'm really working on. Just recently, in the past several months or so, I have been inundated with a person in my life that is not the most savory of characters. Definitely not a proponent of women and is a woman. It is as if she has an axe to grind or a competition to win. Ordinarily this would have driven me mad. You know who that would hurt in the long run??? Me. Now... I step back, take a breath, observe the person with clearer eyes and mobilize accordingly. I can only change me, not a person. So as opposed to getting bent out of shape or reacting, I listen, observe and act... but only if necessary. It is amazing how little is actually necessary. It has helped on so many levels. So now...
So there you go. Patience. Who knew I would ever get here. One can say that through my years of impatience I was finally patient and everything fell into place.
Todays goals and successes:
1. Lungs are still not well enough to exercise... so I didn't.
2. Came home and took care of my home so it is clean, warm and inviting for the week.
3. Had a glass of wine.
4. Took at hot bath.
5. Put on a moisturizing face mask for my chapped cheeks.
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